Dear Baby Boy

In less than 48 hours you will be here.  Life with your family is....loud.  But you know that.  You've heard. 

Your big brother, Stink, hasn't been feeling well lately.  But he is very excited for you to come!  He has told me that he can't wait to play trains with you and teach you the things he knows!  You will be best friends, I hope, and look after each other and your sister.  Your sister.  Peach.  She is kisses you in my belly, hugs  you every morning, and insists that she isn't the baby anymore.  She is BIG.  Although she says this, giving up her baby status may take some time for her-- she likes being the baby girl.  So, while we've been waiting for you to come, she has tried out some of the baby gear we have around the house, just waiting for you.  She has climbed into the bouncy seat, climbed into the swing (which was very quick and not sure how she did it because my back was only turned for a second!), she has tried to get into the bassinet too-- but we've, so far, managed to keep her out of it! 

And daddy and I?  We are very excited for you to come! If only we can decide what to name you!  The last 9 months have been an absolute blur.  The spring was long and dragged on, I was very tired and a bit queasy at times.  The summer was torcher-- the heat in the midwest was a nightmare.  There were very few mild days, so that meant we stayed in the house a lot!  I got large and pregnant with you quickly, and that meant that by fall, I had some really uncomfortable moments--especially as you started to go through some large growth spurts.

Now, with just two days to go, I realize how much I am going to miss things just like this.  Feeling you move around every night, the anticipation of you coming, not knowing what to expect-- yes.  I'm a little nervous about being a mother to three children.  Just as I was nervous with each of your siblings.  What I know now, that I didn't when your sister was born, was that love expands exponentially and in ways that I never imagined.  I am so excited to raise you and introduce you to your siblings.  I can't wait to discover the kind of baby, and little person you will be.  I can't wait for all those little surprises, things that one day, your daddy and I will look back at pictures and say "he is exactly who he was the day he was born, we just didn't realize it." 

I can't wait to hold you in my arms, baby boy, and nurse you, and rock you, and wake up with you at all hours of the night.  (but please don't be afraid of sleeping. Sleep is good.  You need it to grow big and strong!) 

My dear, sweet, baby boy.  We will meet you soon!  I love you!